Raising from ashes, well yeah I’ve been dormant for sometime on blogs and I’m just trying to be back, raising from my own ignorance and sleep to the world of blogging. There are quite a many reasons I’ve to attribute for my absence from the blogosphere. The year 2010 has been terrific and kept myself busy in various activities ranging from the project work, blogging, sleeping and watching movies in my comp. Well last few months of the the year 2010 was really hectic and things were quite unsure. Work pressure and commuting to work place (travelling from one city to another city!!) was really pissing me off and I had to concentrate a bit more on my career side 😯
Keeping myself off from the blog has given me many unimportant things in my life. First one is laziness. I’ve become one extreme loafer who is reluctant to move my bums from a place and commands things to happen. This has given some comfort which has become so dangerous and devastatingly harmful in the long run. Laziness prevented me to think. Yes, I actually wanted to take a break and that break was almost three months. But I was totally unaware that these three months will make me so so lazy. Whenever I think of writing something, I open my openoffice document, (Yes, I switched to Open source recently, switching from Windows XP to Ubuntu 10.10 Linux operating system) either sleep gives me a big hug or something else distracts me from thinking. Moreover I had other things which had more priority than blogging. So I didn’t mind neglecting my dear blogging at that point of time.
Second thing which prevented me from blogging was the inability to come up with new themes for my stories or interesting content. I used to breathe and eat blogging few months back. I sincerely take efforts to draft things and post it in my blog. But lack of new ideas and themes kept me away from this god damn passion of mine and only resulting on envying people who come up with good stuffs and brooding over my inability to find time. Lacking of ideas and thoughts is one worst thing for a writer that blocks his mind from innovation and thus putting a brake in his passion. I was seriously affected by this. 😦
When my career stood in front me holding my collars and asking me to give a change, I was completely clueless on how to give it a hug and console it. It wasn’t so rude but I was in a pitiable state. I had to take big efforts to find a breathing time for my career and for myself which almost went in searching for options. Options were very much limited. My passion and my career were in no point intersecting and it steadily maintained a wide gap which I knew will never be concurrent at any point of my life. Deviating away from my current line involved lots of known risks which I couldn’t take as I was totally bound and intertwined by societal and family pressures.
Commitment is not crime until you start finding your own conscience biting you. I had no other options than to stick to my uninteresting career, fully aware of the damn fact that sticking to it will result in no gain either in your social life or in the financial leg. I had to undergo pains and have gone through situations from which I couldn’t come out just like squeezing the tube of toothpaste. I had to make decisions in life. I had to choose from limited options and take big steps to get some relief.
After some hectic processes and running around, finally I got an answer and some direction to which I can progress as of now. A temporary relief has set in. At least now it is quite relaxing that I’ve chosen what I wanted. But this decision wasn’t an easy one. I had to weigh various options, faced failures and humiliations. As always said, failures are not the end but they are the beginnings. Those failures really gave me a chance to look within and weigh my worth. It helped me to understand self. I could correct my mistakes and could locate where I was low and where I was high. Long time self introspection went in and now I’m okay. Free from little tensions and things which were pricking my heart.
In this new year, few good things happened and I’m happy for that. I should attribute that to my failures which gave me an opportunity to unveil things which were really helpful for my progress in life. Hope this new year 2011 gives me interesting encounters and ever lasting and memorable surprises in my life.
Yea I’ll be back to blogging with full dedication and sincerity as I said before I’m raising from the ashes!
Happy New Year to all of you ( I know I should have said this on Jan 1st. But still I feel this is good time to start and fill the gaps!)
Keep coming folks! 🙂